Confused

3 boys right? I'm in love with one...another makes me feel like the crown jewel....and the other is my rock.
I love them all in their own way....why is it so hard to choose?

I Should Tell You

I should tell you,
That I'm not normal,
I'm afraid of my own shadows,
I can't breathe within a crowd of friends.
I won't tell you that I can't marry,
Because I'm scared you'd reject me.

I can't tell you I'm not normal,
Plastering a smile on my emotionless face.
I should tell you,
That I'll never give you what you seek.
I should tell you that I love you,
But can't let you within my thoughts.
Before this happened,
I should have told you.