Dearest Child

Dearest Child


I'm sorry,

Dearest child,

To put you through this hell.

Your angelic face brightens in my arms,

As you snuggle into the warmth of my body.

I can't give you what you seek,

The nourishment that I should provide,

But I can't seem to find.

Instead,

I will give you the lies told to me,

Let you feed on this betrayal,

I'm not the mother I should be.

My heart is a dead object,

One that was stolen and never returned.

Your father has no love in his heart for you,

Little child,

I have nothing to give you.



As you sleep in the shadows,

I watch you grow,

Studying your movements.

Bright-eyed child,

The source of strength and power,

For yourself,

For me.

I still have no love for you,

Darling,

No warmth left for you.

I watch you walk away,

All grown up in the world,

With no love for your mother.

I drift away into darkness,

Seeking nothing,

Wanting only my only child,

To speak of a unwanted love,

My dearest child,

I have loved.